Self Portrait

I've gone through a lot of major life changes and turbulent events in the past month or so. When we were assigned this project I had plans to make a happy, if nostalgic, little film about how much my life has changed since my time in Asheville. Then life had to go and change a whole lot once again!

I don't wanna get too personal on here, but I tend to block all my emotions to a very unhealthy point, and while several bad things happened to me recently, I felt absolutely nothing about any of them. I refused to really talk or think about any of it and pushed everything way way down.  My self portrait is a reflection of that - this strangling feeling of knowing you should feel a certain way and instead being greeted by sheer numbness when you try to address it. Hopefully it comes off that way???

I'm not completely satisfied with the final product. Emotional blockage kinda = creative blockage. I was really stumped about how I wanted to approach this and I wish I could have shot some cooler b roll. But there'll always be a next time, and hopefully then I'll be a lot more stable and my work will reflect that and it will all be great! Hopefully!